Inside that I cried

Im really not in the mood for a blog or whatever. Im just here at work, taking calls, not really listening to a customer blabbering on how she doesn’t get what she is paying for, busy contemplating why I should be taking calls when I have a slight fever and my tonsils are like ripe cherries ready for harvest but then, like a thief in the night, a familiar voice (Bulak) stole my senses with her singing of a song that I thought long gone coz I havent heard it for ages. It was right on cue, the cold air brought the song gently to my senses, all the other voices seem to drown with the melody of the song, that all the other people taking calls seem to move to background and the sound they create from talking to their own customers seemed muffled and somehow create a subtle harmony for that sad melody, my customer is about to end her tiresome litany of nonsense and I think was asking me something…But the song seem to slowly unlock a part of me long dormant . . . like a ghost it sends shiver though my every cell, like an undertaker with his shovel forcefully unearthing an emotion long buried and forgotten yet to my surprise survived--strong as it was when I first felt it . . . and I was caught on a state of dreamy disorientation (if there is such) and gave me dead air and a low QC score if ever my call was monitored since the customer may have been saying . . . are you there? for I dont know how long now.

Gladly I submit to every note, like a potent poison invading my every vein, every word seemed like a beautiful flower . . . after flower dropped on a sweet flowing stream that leads to a waterfall where it meets its final doom.

A song from Cece Penison that I last heard when my first tear fell because of the pain that love inflicted upon me. A song, no, a prophesy that I heard yet never gave notice until I realized that when again love moved around my corner bringing a lover that soon would leave...it brought me not to that path where it leads you to a river of tears yet just there staring, in the middle of the road, wondering why this time IT WAS INSIDE THAT I CRIED . . .

''Inside That I Cried''
The talks we had on stormy nights
I often rushed away
When you were not in common sight
I was held by your embrace
I gaze and see the pain you feel
To think we had to part
I didn't feel you loved me
So I played games with your heart

CHORUS

It was inside that I cried
It was inside that I cried
No long drawn out speeches
No sad tear solves goodbye
It was inside that I cried
It was inside that I cried
Don't be deceived by what you saw
It was inside that I cried
You treated me just like a queen
For me that wasn't enough
You showered me with expensive things
But I found a new love
Mistakes I made were fatal ones
Finally I see you cared
I can't undo what has been done
Now I need you, and you're not there

CHORUS

BRIDGE

No more prayers to make for tomorrow
Our time has slipped away
I feel so helpless
There's nothing I can do or say
To make things better
It was inside that I cried
It was inside that I cried
Nolong drawn out speeches
No sad tear solves goodbye
It was inside that I cried for you
Now you're never coming back for me no more
Oh baby I know that I was wrong
So you left me all alone
Don't go
Don't be deceived by what you saw
It was inside that I cried